♥ Thursday, May 31, 2007
i managed to smile during my worst moment. goodness. tanx to zaida and sofie i was feeling much better. but obviously im still not over him yet. people who've been there for me tanxx alot. i appreciate it. i love u guys!!
Cause it's the coolest age to be./3:11 PM
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I cant explain how hurt i've been since u left me.
Im never going to be the same zuran ever.
my heart is in a state where its in pieces almost impossible to mend.
this what HE said:
Hai perempuan yg ku cintai buat selame lame nye.. sebelum saye meninggalkn awk, saye ade brape perkataan...
saye rase tali perhubungan kite lebih baek saye putuskn.. sampai disini saje la.. saye btol2 kecewa dgn awk.. saye tahu awk maen blakang saye tap tkpe.. saye rase geram ape bile terdngar cerite sal awak.. punye la syg nk masok 5 mths we r together but tetap diputuskn.. i tink we r not meant for each other.. saye begitu sedih dan sedu skali pabile awk buat demikian di blakang saye.. u noe wat? Brape berat hati saye nk lepaskn awk..saye cinta awk dari keikhlasan hati saye nie..bukan senang nk dpt pompuan mcm awk nie.. tau jage hati org..langkah demi langkah aku terus berjua, masa demi masa sampai akhirnya.. terima kasih atas penghinaan yg kau lemparkn.. langkah demi langkah kita daki bersama, jatuh terluka bangon semula terima kasih atas kesakitan yg telah kau berikan... slamat tinggal kesengsaraan, slmt tinggal penderitaan terima kasih atas pengorbanan yg kau berikan.. Demi tuhan aku syg padamu.. air mata menjadi saksinya.. bagaimana agy hendak ku buktikn kesetiaan cinta ku ini.. apakah lagy yg kau mahu.. tk cukupkah pengorbana ku.. kali terakhir i wanna sae 'i reali3 luv u so much frm the bottom of my hear'! Tsnx for everiting.. hope u get a better guy then me..
yg benar romy
090107-300507
this is what I said:
Alrite then dear, im reali gonn miz u, i know u wont believe me wen i sae we r juz frens. i reali stil love u alot n til forever. i just couldnt belive u would say those hurtful words "BREAKUP". i know we r still young n have a long way to go. i realy thought we could go a long way. it disgusts me that it ended right bfore my parents departure for umrah and ur burfdae, i reali wanted to celebrate it together. i just wish we could talk things out. i dont blieve in the words " u would find a better guy than me",coz we never tried. its hard for me to let u go. i reali cant blieve dat it has to end now. Dear, y must ot end. I reali hate myself for getting u 2 not trust me.In relationships, we tend to make mistakes. Could u ever 4give me 4 hurting u even if i reali didnt mean to. Sayang, my mum reali appreciate uveri much, i dont dare tell my mom about our breakup, bcoz it will hurt her too. I reali feel like hugging u, coz u r the only one who can comfort me. i jus wanna hug u, i dont wanna leave u! i cant take it! i just cant! im not strong! y cant u just give me a chance 2 prove 2 u dat im not like any of the bitches out there, who just wanna take advantage of u. Its all up to you, but if u have made up ur mind about this, i reali cant do aniting but cry, and let time heal my almost unhealable scar.
Cause it's the coolest age to be./10:50 AM
♥ Sunday, May 27, 2007
okehh so below are the pics that nizam uploaded for me.. haha we were in the canteen at that time.
aniwaes went to fareast with nads. we made a first stop at the fruit juice store, coz i had a craving for fruit juice. n i gotta give credit to the shop. the fruit they use are soo fresh. no regrets spending 4 bucks on heavenly fresh fruit juice! yumm. we did some shopping and strolled around town. tht was quite about it. yupp. k lame.
Cause it's the coolest age to be./9:59 PM
♥ Thursday, May 24, 2007
a shoutout before i start writing:
DEAR IM SORRY FOR WHAT I'VE DONE, PLZ JUST DONT IGNORE ME!NEWSFLASH! Zaida, Saiha, and Syaira are now with chicken pox! I am required to stay away from them. And of course to avoid the scarring of any part of me, especially my face. I cant imagine spots on my face. its just super eeeeeewwww.haha. Eventhough i was planning to get infected with it for two weeks of mc,i chickened out as soon as i learnt they were going through hell. Can you imagine how difficult it is to sleep with pox? The bumps on the body hinders you from lying comfortably on ur bed.when u shower, suddenly u realise the bumps are a part of ur body. u cant even look into the mirror coz its too disgusting. Plus you have to apply medication every now and then which leaves you no time for everything else. So if u think pox is heaven just so u could get 2 weeks of break
and pain, think again.
Cause it's the coolest age to be./8:21 PM
♥ Monday, May 21, 2007
Im seriously confused.
ok i do trust him.
but sometimes its complicating.
do u feel like sometimes u come up with these ridiculous questions
and
u know its dumb
but u need to know.
like its really killing you.
like you wanna freakin KNOW
but u cant
coz the question is unthinkable.
maybe u'll think im retarded.
but im actually thinking out of the box.
you may think am i being rational enuff?
well im seriously not sure
im really making my mind a twisted dump right now.
geez
ok2 ill get straight up to the point
the question is.....
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE UR NOT THERE FOR ME ANYMORE?
ok so probably im just imagining things
coz heck, im good at it.
all i have to say is
i hope that now is just a blah phase for u n me
and it will all work out in the end
coz i really do love u
and u know it
Cause it's the coolest age to be./4:14 PM
♥ Sunday, May 20, 2007
Heylo crazy peeps!
kies soo yesterday had a gathering at my house
and at the same time was my bro's burfdae..
my cousins came
but ironically the burfdae boy was late for his appearance coz he went out
i didnt give him any presents coz he didnt give me any on my burfdae
hah i know im cruel.
but
he still got money from all my uncs and aunts.
so he should be contented.
nonetheless i had fun.
with my cute lil cuzzies that is.
all of them gathered around me and caused chaos.hahs
they all went."nur cute!", "nak rambot awak!" "nak amek gambar ngan awak!"
ahahs! they were cute lil pumpkins.
Cause it's the coolest age to be./10:26 PM
♥ Saturday, May 12, 2007
the other pic that i edited
Cause it's the coolest age to be./10:17 PM
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Hello dudes n dudettes,
so this weekend is plain boring
i didnt have any plans
so its easy to guess i was just at home
except..
yesterday i hanged out at bukit panjang plaza's mcdonalds with my cuzz and SOFIEYANA!
hee~
sofie taught me how to edit pics n i think im getting good at it
just look at the pic below
cool rite??
hehe though its a lil bit amateur-ish
yeah so as usual me n my cuzzies went mad..
we laughed n did stupid things like finger marching to this techno song..
hahah!
it did cheer me up a lil from my weekend blues..
so tomorrows MOTHER'S DAY!
me n ma cuzzies have this suprise for our moms
ordered a cake n the venue for celebration is at za's house
i think these are the only interesting things i have to tell you for today,
pathetic.yes.
okies den.cheerio!
Cause it's the coolest age to be./10:14 PM
♥ Sunday, May 06, 2007
pictures of
us on the day we had 3 hours
"BREAK"
Cause it's the coolest age to be./1:20 PM
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yesterday went to town....again.. with two of my secondary school friends..it was boring..coz actually we planned to watch spiderman... first we went to cineleisure.. not to my suprise all the time slots were fully booked.. the same thing happened at plaza sing and shaw house...and at last we didnt watch the friggin movie.. i wasted my time like seriously.
Cause it's the coolest age to be./1:12 PM
♥ Thursday, May 03, 2007
Tomorrow is a dreaded day la....... tomorrow's friday, and school start's at 11am..but....ends at 5pm! aaaaaaarghh!!
ok so yesterday i didnt have the chance to update coz i slept over at saiha's place..had a deep discussion wit a friend at her house about saiha.. "the friend"which im talking about is Firman..yup2 saiha's ex.. although i wish i could tell u what we talked about..it really is unnessacsary.. private and top
secret..so my lips are tightly sealed..muahaha...
went to school as per normal.. and nope not a single class missed thanks to my crazy friends,,far,,farah,,and elyana..they(including me) were trying to not miss a single class from now on.. lets just see la..k so yesterday for break at school all four of us already schemed about ending our day in school early.. we went straight to far east and ate at sakura..yumm the mee goreng there is the best! soo from there on we walked to plaza sing and got farr's hp back, and finally we lepak-ed..
Cause it's the coolest age to be./5:19 PM
